It was nine years ago today that I said good-bye to Craig...my first born son. He had battled cancer for just one year before he left us. At the time, I wondered how I could live even one day without him. Somehow, I have managed to live nine years without seeing that cute face, hearing that deep, sweet voice, feeling the big bear hugs he would give me and laughing at the his wonderful sense of humor.
I've asked God many, many times why he took this love from me and what I was supposed to do with my life without my Craiger. I still don't have the answers, I long to see him every single day and would give anything to change the past. But, this is what happened and I know that I must go on and live my life the best way I can.
I try to honor Craig's wishes that I help others who don't understand how precious life is. He would get so frustrated when he heard of people taking life for granted. He would say, "they just don't get it Mom." He knew that God was everywhere and watching over us and wanting the best for all of us.
Today I honor my Craig and ask all mothers to give their children an extra hug, kiss and encouraging words today and everyday. That is something I cannot do with Craig, but I do with Matt every time I see him.
I love you Craig and I am so happy I am your mother. Please stay with me.
3 comments:
Dear Jill -
Please know that all of us out here are thinking of you today. No words can convey the depth of such a loss, but friends do help us through the long days. I hope for you a circle of friends such as I have had. I wish I had known your Craig - I know it would have been so wonderful.
With love,
Karen
I can't imagine what that must feel like. You're in my thoughts and prayers today.
I'm writing this through my tears for you. You have an angel watching over you. God bless, my friend. Love you, Lori
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